To My Child: I Just Want To Relish In Your Littleness

When you were first born, we measured our time together in days.

I would hold you in my arms for hours as you slept.

Just staring at your precious little face.

Smiling, because I realized how blessed I was to have you come into my life.

Smiling, because I realized how blessed I was to be your mama.

Then Before I Knew It, Those Days Turned Into Weeks, Then Months.

And now, as if time is racing us by, those precious days have turned into years.

Undoubtedly, they have been the best years of my life! 

Though I won’t lie, it hasn’t always been smooth sailing as we have both grown together.

You, as you began to grow into the amazing little person you are now.

And me, as I have grown into the mama I needed to be.

We have both had days that have been hard.

Days of exhaustion, days of frustration, and days full of emotions we didn’t know how to deal with.

Somedays have certainly felt longer than others.

But, thankfully when I look back, those days have been few. And, what we have each learnt from them has been powerful.

Those days have shaped us as we have needed to be shaped.

Without those days we wouldn’t have grown.

But My Sweet Child, The Years Are Flying By Far Too Quickly. 

Part of me just wants time to stand still.

For you to stay little forever.

But, it is in those moments, I pause to reflect, to take in you, all that you are and all that you are becoming.

And as much as I want you to stay little, I know I would miss out on seeing you grow into the life destined for you.

I would miss out on seeing you carve your own mark on this world, whatever that may be.

It still scares me.

It scares me to see how fast you are growing.

As I Just Want To Relish In Your Littleness.

But, it also makes me so proud to be your mama.

To see you grow.

To see you grow into the beautiful person you are becoming.

I know how precious our time together.

I know there will come a time when you no longer fit snug in my arms.

When you no longer need me to lay with each night till you fall asleep.

When you no longer need me to drive you around from place to place.

So although some days may be hard, I don’t ever want to wish away them away.

For I know the years are short.

For I know that there will come a time when you are all grown up and you have found your independence.

For I know there will come a time when you no longer need me as you do now.

So, my sweet child, I want to cherish the little moments.

And the big.

I want to savor our special moments together while they are right here in front of me.

I never want to take our time together for granted.